Early morning

Here I am first thing in the morning. I start work on the weekends at 6am and I work till 2pm. There isn't many messages first thing in the morning so I sit here reading blogs and my email.
The knitty baby bumpers blog just makes me sad. I am so happy that so many people are pregnant but still I am not.
I was hoping that this month I was but I'm not. I love my son so much but I want more children mostly because family is so important to us and because we have so much love to ive to so many children.
Mark is away for the next two weeks so I get to work and look after Sam all by myself. I will miss him and he will miss us. We would have gone with him but money is tight so he is going alone.
early morning makes me feel blah.